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The Festival FringeI walked out of the station and encountered Peter and Doreen Brown standing on a traffic island near the Safeway supermarket with a harmonium. Peter explained that he was the Fringe, all festivals needed a Fringe of course, and he would be playing a tune composed by his grand daughter, Florence, to Stevie’s poem ‘Avondale’. At half past two the crowd of people stopped singing to Mr Brown’s harmonium and were led into the station foyer, and the reading began. People walked through us to catch their train and a cleaner wandered through with a bucket and mop.
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![]() The readers of the poems : Katherine Gallagher, David Bevan and Rehana Durrani, photographed in St John's Church |
God the EaterWe walked to the church and sat in the pews. Katherine Gallagher
explained that though all the family had been churchgoers Stevie’s
relationship with Christianity had been ambiguous. Then she read ‘God
the Eater’. It begins: There is a god in whom I do not believe
.... And ends When I am dead I hope that he will eat/ Everything that
I have been and not been? /And crunch upon it and feed upon it and grow
fat / Eating my life all up as it is his.
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Lapsing into beliefStevie wrote other poems in which she speaks with or through God and his angels. The poem‘ God Speaks’ begins ‘ I made man with too many faults’ and declares that one of man’s faults is that he misunderstands God abominably when he says that God had a son and gave him for man’s salvation. Under the poem there’s a drawing of God with bushy eyebrows, a pained expression, at being misunderstood I suppose, a trident and crown. He does not look like anyone else’s idea of God. In spite of her scepticism, and sometimes disgust and anger, with Christianity, Stevie retained her interest in God and in the Church of England, and said there was always a danger that she might ‘lapse into belief’.
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Sometimes it’s difficult to see where Stevie is taking us. She flies off on her new hat, disappears into a frozen lake and reappears as Persephone, the next moment she has metamorphosed into the frog prince hopping towards the heavenly palace. Stevie invites us to leave the path and play hide and seek. If we play her game and follow her through this bizarre forest then, like children who play hide and seek in a wood, we may see more of its hidden nature than those who are led down designated footpaths with explanatory handouts. |
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Stevie, though good at wearing masks and playing games, resolutely refused to ‘play the game’ of being a serious poet, and she never became part of the establishment. In her poem ‘Girls’ she explains ‘Girls, though I am a woman/I always try to appear human/, Unlike Miss So and So... Miss So and So is a games teacher who cries a lot of ‘balsy nonsense’ about not selling the pass and letting down the side; the poem ends defiantly: Girls! I will let down the side if I get a chance/And I will sell the pass for a couple of pence. Stevie has been accused of talking 'balsy nonsense' herself. She explained that her Muse did not speak, but howls and mutters, which sounds absurd, but I respect her for listening attentively to the weird howling and muttering, for translating these disturbing noises into her poetry, and for having the courage to be herself, even when that self is, like all our selves, often contradictory and ridiculous. |
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Her poems about nature can be fierce. In ‘Alone in the Woods’ she writes ‘...I felt the bitter hostility of the sky and the trees ... Nature is sick at man .../ Sick at his gaudy mind/ That drives his body/ Ever more quickly/ More and more/ In the wrong direction. She can be tender, but strange; that afternoon they also read us ‘Fafnir the Dragon’ who was a happy simple creature who cooled his tongue in the quiet waters of a forest pool until the knights saw him and must kill him ‘for their own merit.’ She is often fierce about inhumanity to animals, as in ‘The Zoo’ which begins ‘The lion sits within his cage,/ Weeping tears of ruby rage, ... and near the end describes how‘ His claws are blunt? His teeth fall out? No victim's flesh consoles his snout’... A poem full of rage and cruelty. As a contrast I think ‘The Best Beast of the Fat-Stock Show, Earls Court’ is very moving. Occasionally Stevie can be sentimental, I really dislike the poem ‘The Singing Cat’ that’s in anthologies of favourite poems. She wrote many poems on water, rivers, lakes, sea: we heard the most famous, Not Waving but Drowning of course. David Bevan told me he thinks poetry and nature go together well, both are somewhat anarchic. He works for the London Borough of Haringey, and looks after the Railway Fields Nature Reserve in Haringay, a place within the borough. Katherine was the poet in residence to Railway Fields from July - October, 2002 and organised poetry events within the residency. I am intrigued as co-incidentally I am also involved as a volunteer in a Local Nature Reserve at home in Barry. |
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A selection of Stevie’s thoughts on love and marriage were read that afternoon. We heard the poem ‘The Jungle Husband, Dear Evelyn I often think of you/ Out with the guns in the jungle stew/Yesterday I hittapotamus ...Tomorrow I am going alone a long way/Into the jungle ...so no more now, from your loving husband Wilfred.’ To me this poem illustrates the distance that can exist between two affectionately married people. ‘Major Macroo’ paints a darker picture, an example of ‘ selfish cruel men/ Hurting what they most love what most loves them.’ |
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Stevie always lived in a female household; she never married and the ‘unrespected papa’ who sent brief postcards, Off to Valparaiso, love Daddy, seldom appeared in Palmer’s Green, but she knew a lot about life and was sometimes critical of those who considered her 'innocent'. She observed with interest the relationship of her girlfriends to their husbands, and in her last novel, ‘The Holiday’, the heroine explains how she has trouble with the friends who are living with their chosen ones. ’I have trouble for two reasons, because sometimes I like the chosen one too much, but mostly and the most trouble , because I do not like him enough, and think it is so wonderful of the women to be so unselfish and so kind.’ I thought about one husband that Stevie may have liked too much, George Orwell. They were certainly close friends, and there were rumours that they were also lovers. Stevie turned against Orwell eventually, she complained that he lied to her and later wrote, perhaps with the bitterness of an ex lover, that he had ‘a sick man’s lust for extreme cruelty’ and that he would be a 'disappointed ghost’ if 1984 came and nothing much had changed. |
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Above - Rehana Durrani, David Bevan and Katherine Gallagher
outside 1 Avondale Road
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On we went to 1 Avondale Road where Stevie had lived with her aunt, and listened to 'A House of Mercy. It was a house of female habitation...' and then ‘Come Death’ a poem written shortly before she died from a tumour of the brain. Here’s the end Ah me, sweet death, you are the only god /Who comes as a servant when he is called, you know /Listen to the sound I make, it is sharp /Come death. Do not be slow. Stevie was fascinated by death. She developed tuberculous peritonitis when she was five years old and spent several years going in and out of a sanatorium. When she was eight she decided she wanted to die, and thought if she kept crying and refusing to eat she would die, but after a while she found she did not, and the thought came that death could always be summoned another day. This thought mostly kept at bay the thoughts of suicide that came to her in her fits of melancholy. In the poem Why do I...’ Stevie explains why she thought of death as a friend: It is because he is a scatterer /He scatters the human frame/The nerviness and the great pain ... Stevie died in 1971, only three years after the death of the ‘the lion of Hull’ who died in 1968 aged ninety six. |
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The reading ended with the poem ‘Suburb’ which starts ‘How
nice it is to slink the streets at night ... Each paving stone
sardonic/Grins to its fellow citizen masonic: / ’Thank God they’re
gone,’ and continues ‘Suburbs are not so bad I think/ When their
inhabitants can not be seen/ Even Palmers Green’ . When her literary
friends suggested that she should leave this dull suburb Stevie always
rejected the idea. Maybe just as she was sustained by aunt who
thought that writing poems was ‘unnecessary’, the quiet
neighbourhood was also something she needed. She kept a low profile in
the community, as shown by a letter from a Southgate bookseller in June
1949, "We shall certainly respect your wish not to publicise your
book locally ... It is so true ‘a prophet is not without honour save in
his own country’. I was amused to find that even the dead Stevie
fails to conform to what’s expected, and is being honoured in her own
suburb. |
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I thought the afternoon had been a fitting tribute to her, the
progression through the suburb with a harmonium on a handcart, the
reading of poems in the station foyer and in bustle of the shopping
street, the visit to the Church, the singing on the pavement to the
accompaniment of the harmonium, it all had a suggestion of a carnival,
mingling the sacred and profane, the sublime with the ridiculous:
‘Mother, among the dustbins and the manure/ I feel the measure of my
humanity, an allure/As of the presence of God. I am sure’. |
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Goodbye Palmers GreenI walked back to the station on the paving stones refreshed by the shower of Stevie’s words, and took the train back to my own suburb, I wished I had been able to come to many of the other events arranged by the organisers of the Festival, the poet Katherine Gallagher and Joanna Cameron. However I did enjoy the walk, and I'm grateful to the sponsors of the festival and everyone who made it possible. |
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The green poetry badge was given to me when I bought some books in the well stocked Palmers Green Bookshop (which sadly closed on 24 December 2006) | ||||||||||||||
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